Trust

Trust. It's a major part of any relationship.  Whether it be with family, friends, or guys.  Trust is a key element for a good relationship.  It brings security, confidence, and you feel over-all happy.  When you lose that trust you have in someone it feels like your own personal hell and you just wanna curl up in a ball and disappear into your own dark little hole.  It is absolutely miserable.  Then you start questioning every little thing that happens.  If a friend doesn't reply to your text, after a while you think, "Ohmygod! It's happening again! I don't wanna lose them!"  You think of the worst possible things that could happen and much more.  All because one person lost your trust.  I would know.  I have had all these thoughts and feelings.  I still struggle to remind myself that I have good, stable friends who will be there for me through whatever.  But then I think, "I thought _________ was a good friend, too, and look at us now!!!"  Because of that one lost trust I now have a lower self esteem.  And slowly I am feeling better,  more confident.  But my trust will take a long time to get back.  Not in that of my real friends, for I feel more trust toward them than anyone.  But I still question so much.  I must keep my head high and remember to:

Live life to its fullest
Laugh hard
Love often